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A long long time ago when I was maybe 5 years old - I remember asking my mom "Have you ever wanted to be someone or something else?" She asked me what I meant by that and I responded with "I sometimes wish I would turn into a Kangaroo". She looked at me as if she needed to check me into a mental facility. And from that day I closed myself off and realized I couldn't share my feelings with anyone close to me.

I spent countless hours writing stories about people transforming into animals - including myself. I also started to draw my own visions of what a transformation might look like. I felt very alone and detached from most everyone else and wondered if I was not mentally well. I remember being fascinated with the story of Pinocchio and how these young boys were being transformed into Donkey's. Disney had also been spitting out movie after movie with Anthropomorphic Characters - which also influenced me quite a bit.

Then something radical started happening around me. All the girls my age that I was growing up with were changing. I was floored to watch every girl around me physically transform from tomboy stick figures - to curvy - sexual creatures. I was jealous. When I hit puberty - my body did all the things I didn't want it to do. More hair. Sweat. More muscle mass. Lower voice. I felt like I was missing out on a life I wanted but could never have. I became increasingly depressed as a young teenager. I took that negativity and started to steer my creativity towards gender transformation storytelling. I clearly remember writing quite a bit about transforming into Heather Locklear - because I remember my parents watched Dynasty each week. The "curse" for me and many others in my positition is that when you end up admiring a woman - the first reaction from people is that you want to get into her pants. But the irony that most don't know - is that it's actually more about wanting to be that woman you can't take your eyes off of - and less about justing wanting to get her into bed (which is what the stereotype is for all heterosexual men). Hence the "curse" is about living a life where you are subjected to the very thing you want to be on a daily basis.

I came across two movies in the 1980's that literally blew my mind and I believe completely shaped the way I approach and look at transformations. "An American Werewolf In London" and "Deathstalker'". I don't recall when I first laid eyes on the werewolf movie - but I do know that Rick Baker's work on that movie to this day is amazing. I studied that transformation scene like crazy and was in awe that someone had created something I could only imagine in my dreams. The way in which David's body works against him - skin pulling - bones cracking - body parts extending - hair and nails growing. This is where the "horror" of transformation came into play for me. The idea of your own body turning you into someone or something else against your will was intoxicating. To this day I get asked that question a lot. "Why do your characters always seem to be in pain when they transform?" It's because in my own opinion - if you were to suddenly start transforming into a woman or anything else - that process more than likely would be painful. Not the magical "poof" like changes that happen in most fairy tale like scenarios. This was a more horror like nature to the subject.

My dad had somehow had a copy of "Deathstalker" on VHS. He always locked up the Rated R movies - but for some reason left this one out all the time. I popped it into the VHS machine and thought the movie itself was really bad. I almost ejected the movie when I came across the scene of all scenes. I watched as the main antagonist used dark magic to slowly transform his main henchman into a very voluptuous young woman. The scene had no chance of beating AWIL for it's effects work - but what it did do was show me a male character who is unwillingly transformed into a beautiful female. And not in a comedic fashion. It wasn't played for laughs. Something I take issue with with most gender bender comedies. It was a brilliant stroke of storytelling in an otherwise terrible movie. Turning a reluctant henchman into a seductive and beautiful clone of the movie's princess for a "Trojan Horse" like assassination attempt heavily influenced my approach in gender transformation like storytelling.

I continued to write and draw both gender and animal transformation related material to help ease my own internal demons. I was sent to several psychologists as my parents were concerned over my depression. None of whom really helped me - as I was also closed off and didn't want to talk about my feelings. I was attracted to women - and even had some very serious relationships in high school and college. Even today I tend to get a long with women very well. I tried cross dressing several times - but it never did satisfy me. I thought about hormone therapy and surgery - but convinced myself that if I wasn't born a female - then I didn't want to pretend to be one or look like one. I was in a bad place.

Music also became a big part of my life during this time as I happened to be in several alternative bands in the late 1980's and early 1990's. I wrote most of the songs - and I would often slip in double meanings into our songs that also had a gender dysphoria like slant. Songs like "Sex Slave", "Doppleganger", "Killing A Siren", "The Devil Wears High Heels" are perfect examples of this. I have been very fortunate that I've mostly worked with female lead singers and I have written most of the songs as if I were them. I often try and be more in a female state of mind. So when they sing the lyrics - it's normally me pretending to be in their shoes or having some female sensibility. Even leading up to my current band, IMAGINARIUS. Current examples of this idea can be found in songs like, "Strip!", "Queen With A Hollow Heart", "Karma Is A Bitch", "The Life Of A Facebook Junkie" and many more.

I became suicidal in the early 1990's and almost took my life a couple times. I'm very happy I didn't. I kind of felt like Kurt Cobain's moment where he took his life made me seriously rethink about what I was trying to do. I felt so disconnected from everyone since I felt alone. I knew no one who had any kind of gender dysphoria or transformation obsession like I had. But that all changed with - The Internet in the mid 1990's.

The Transformation Story Archive is the first site I can remember - that I visited on a regular basis. Artists from all over the world would upload their transformation works and my mind was blown that there were others like me out there. I created my handle - MAKO (due to my fascination with sharks) - and signed up to start submitting my own transformation drawings to the site. I started to visit forums and chat with other people like me. I was so relieved to know I wasn't alone. This was also around the time I ended up writing the biggest TF TG story I have ever conceived called, "Touched By The Hand Of God". It is still one of my favorite stories about a man who becomes a female vampire each night. The only female vampire in existence. She is joined by several other characters with supernatural powers and constantly stalked by other male vampires and other bad guys. The funny part is that I now see similarities between the TV Series "Buffy The Vampire Slayer" and my story/characters. Although I didn't see the TV Series years after I wrote my story. I was heavily influenced by the X-Files and Interview With The Vampire when I created TBTHOG.

THE SIREN SONG was first created by Siren herself. She sought me out and asked if I would showcase my content on her site. It became one of the most popular fictional Gender Transformation sites on the web back in the 1990's, along side Robo's World, Fictionmania and the TSA. I created hand drawn art and comics, CG comics and animated shorts using one of the first versions of POSER. Other talented artists such as CBlack, Daniel-San and Gunslinger also started to contribute to the site and things were going very well for it.

My ambitions to do bigger and more complex animated shorts blew up in my face in the early 2000's as I continued to try and do more than what I was capable of on my own. My limited computer systems couldn't handle the workload. And it took enormous amounts of time to render animated shots back in the day for me. I eventually gave up and started to look for other ways to bring TG Story Transformations to life. I found my answer in my very next project, "The Kiss".

As this was going on - it appeared as though "The Siren Song" website was getting too big for it's own good. The amount of bandwith and views were taxing the site as well as the cost of keeping it up and running for free. Siren had to stop and leave the website. Daniel-San and others tried to keep it running as long as they could (and even changed the name at one point) - but it eventually shut down.

"The Kiss" became the largest indie production I had made at that time. With the largest cast and crew as well. It was a chance to work with all kinds of people - including the first time I worked with Ray Richards who ended up becoming my production partner - when it came to doing future Mako Pictures Productions. I had an outline for 3 Acts for "The Kiss" as well as a prequel - but I knew we could only really shoot Act 1 - based on resources, budget and time. We shot the movie in the Fall of 2003 and it was finished in post in the Spring of 2004. I remember being very proud of the movie and not making a comedy out of a gender bender premise. My heart sank deep when we screened the movie at Universal for hundreds of people - and they laughed during the transformation scene. I was embarrased and outragged all at the same time. It was my wake up call for me. I wanted to change the world. I wanted to make people more empathetic towards the sexes. To lose their prejudice and stereoypes. To take the idea of becoming the opposite sex and be serious about it. Little did I realize - most people find the premise to be comedic. You can see more about "The Kiss" with the making of documentary included with the movie.

For years - I received emails and requests to read other authors TG stories. Some asking if I would turn their story into an animation or movie. Not a whole lot interested me. Until I came across the beginnings of a story that Robert Evans sent me about a virus. It caught my attention and he and I worked on the story until we ended up with what is now known as "The Last Piece Standing". I shot the movie during the early Winter of 2005. It was the hardest shoot to date I've pretty much done. Out in the wilderness - in a small cabin with a large cast and crew. The weather didn't cooperate with us on several occasions. But to this day - I believe the end result is probably the short movie I am most proud of. I think it's the best of all the movie like shorts I've done. And I've been told so by numerous fans as well. I was also fortunate to become friends with Grant Freckelton (Gryf) who is an amazing animal transformation artist and created the transformation scene in the movie for me. He actually lives in Australia - and ended up being out in L.A. and we hung out for a bit. "The Last Piece Standing" to this day has won the most film festival awards of all the movies I've made and seemed to get some good buzz. You can see more about "The Last Piece Standing" with the making of documentary included with the movie.

Next up was something I wanted to create strickly for the fan base. "Eleven" spawned from my earlier fascinations with Pinocchio. This was one of my first attempts at twisting classic material on it's head. I knew going into the production that I wanted a lot of skin. I needed to find an actress who felt comfortable enough to imagine she was once a man - and transformed painfully into a blonde female - and wasn't really thinking much about covering up right away. Most actresses and female characters become very self conscious and too aware about covering up - when in real life situations - they do not think this way in private locations. I see so many TV Shows and Movies where actresses seem to cover themselves up perfectly at the right moments and it always pulls me out. However - I also acknowledge and am extremely sensitive to not trying to exploit a woman to make what appears to be a soft porn to some. That was and is never my intention. The reality is a male to female transformation is not just about the mental changes, but especially the physical. And I pushed "Eleven" as hard as I could to really demonstrate what it meant to become a physical female. To celebrate the female form like many Renaissance painters like Tizianao Vecellio focused on at the time. "Eleven" has without a doubt been the most requested of all my movies. The uncensored version that is. And now I'm bringing it back to those who want it.

Another facet that I loved about making these live action shorts and videos was that I got chance to work with a lot of very talented actors and actresses. Many of whom were intrigued with the idea of playing characters who were once men and transformed into full blown women. It was a positive experience for me in that I worked closely with them to explore - discover - and play around with what it might be like to experience this thematic in a more dramatic way. And I have to say - it's not a common thing you see in mainstream stories, TV or movies. No one hardly ever seems to question their own gender and what it's all about. Most everyone just accepts their sex for what it is. So making these productions over time has given me so much more insight into both men and women. And just like the songs I had written with a female POV - I was doing the same with all the scripts I was writing as well. It was giving me a chance to role play in a way.

It was also during this time (2006-2008) that I discovered SECOND LIFE and WOW. I had a blast for a couple years on SL - and even had my own SIM island where I re-created an actual virtual version of THE SIREN SONG. We had a club. Movie theater. And huge Gallery full of transformation related material. I wanted the island to have a Japanese like feel - and so me and my friend Shire - built the entire island ourselves. She and I had a lot of fun as we had large groups of friends show up each week. After a few years - I found it more and more difficult to be able to visit SL on a daily basis. And soon most other people did too. So eventually everyone went away. I sold my island and stopped going on SL.

As for "World Of Warcraft" I like most people who played - got addicted to it for a number of years because I had a few friends who talked me into playing. I created two female characters (a female Human Alliance and a female Blood Elf Horde). I have to admit. I loved playing WOW. It was a lot of fun playing these two characters and playing with friends. I always loved D&D so this was right up my alley. The idea of exploring this massive world, endless quests and characters was so overwhelming. Not to mention being these hot and kick ass female characters was so addiciting - that I was wanting to be in WOW more than my own real life. It was a huge time suck for sure. So much that eventually I had to stop playing and walk away from it for a long time. I rarely get on anymore. Maybe a couple times a year for nostaligic reasons - but to this day - it really was one of the most fun games I've played for such a large amount of time.

The thing that I took most away from SL and WOW was that for the first time in my life - I had a small understanding of what it meant to be like a woman from a social stand point. On many occasions I was flirted with, hit on and assisted by male characters. Female characters often would chat with me as if we were girlfriends. I tried being male characters for short periods of time to see what the differences might be - and they were HUGE!! I experienced the social benefits of what it meant to be a woman. And I have to say - to this day - I think it's a very big reason why I've had issues with being a guy. It all became much clearer to me as it also opened up my eyes and I paid even closer attention to how women in the real world become very accustomed to being treated much better than men do and take advantage of it. Hence the need to stay young and good looking. To wear attractive clothing and make-up. It's an advantage. And most people seem to be okay with that notion - or deny it - depending on the person.

In 2007, I wanted to tackle the idea of exploring a cultural gender transformation story in a short movie. I was also very much enjoying the whole Bourne Movie Franchise with Matt Damon and thought they were some of the best spy thriller movies ever made. This is how "The Black Rabbit" was born. I was very fortunate to collaborate with the talented Gillian Tan who not only gave a fun and introspective performance, but also helped me write the script with the perspective of an Asian woman. A major first for me and something that added just another layer to the complexities of what is it like to be in someone else's shoes. In addition - this was when I was contacted by James Ward - as he asked if he could see how Ray and I produced our movies - as he also wanted to produce his own material and had a very succesful YouTube series called "Wand Of Change". James also stepped up and played the antagonist in "The Black Rabbit" as well. I also met Jade Brandais on this movie as she played Mark Watson's wife. Jade went on to perform in some of the "Tales From The Underground" episodes and well as became the Producer for "Paradox Alice" and was a key film maker for that movie.

It was also during this time (2006-2008) that I discovered SECOND LIFE and WOW. I had a blast for a couple years on SL - and even had my own SIM island where I re-created an actual virtual version of THE SIREN SONG. We had a club. Movie theater. And huge Gallery full of transformation related material. I wanted the island to have a Japanese like feel - and so me and my friend Shire - built the entire island ourselves. She and I had a lot of fun as we had large groups of friends show up each week. After a few years - I found it more and more difficult to be able to visit SL on a daily basis. And soon most other people did too. So eventually everyone went away. I sold my island and stopped going on SL.

As for "World Of Warcraft" I like most people who played - got addicted to it for a number of years because I had a few friends who talked me into playing. I created two female characters (a female Human Alliance and a female Blood Elf Horde). I have to admit. I loved playing WOW. It was a lot of fun playing these two characters and playing with friends. I always loved D&D so this was right up my alley. The idea of exploring this massive world, endless quests and characters was so overwhelming. Not to mention being these hot and kick ass female characters was so addiciting - that I was wanting to be in WOW more than my own real life. It was a huge time suck for sure. So much that eventually I had to stop playing and walk away from it for a long time. I rarely get on anymore. Maybe a couple times a year for nostaligic reasons - but to this day - it really was one of the most fun games I've played for such a large amount of time.

The thing that I took most away from SL and WOW was that for the first time in my life - I had a small understanding of what it meant to be like a woman from a social stand point. On many occasions I was flirted with, hit on and assisted by male characters. Female characters often would chat with me as if we were girlfriends. I tried being male characters for short periods of time to see what the differences might be - and they were HUGE!! I experienced the social benefits of what it meant to be a woman. And I have to say - to this day - I think it's a very big reason why I've had issues with being a guy. It all became much clearer to me as it also opened up my eyes and I paid even closer attention to how women in the real world become very accustomed to being treated much better than men do and take advantage of it. Hence the need to stay young and good looking. To wear attractive clothing and make-up. It's an advantage. And most people seem to be okay with that notion - or deny it - depending on the person.

In 2009 - I was ready to retire from the world of Transformations and hang my hat. I was on empty and didn't have much ambition to create or deal with the transformation world as I felt I tackled most every thing - and I felt I said everything I wanted to say. That is until I came up with a little idea called, "Paradox Alice". The most ambitious independent project I have ever made - "Paradox Alice" ended up becoming a full blown feature film per Ray's suggestion (I originally wrote it as a 20 page script). I was writing the "larger" script and doing pre-viz work on the movie throughout 2009 while bringing on Jade Brandais, Ray Richards and David Babbit to help in various roles.

In early 2010 we casted the film. Started to build our very own space ship set in a large warehouse in the City of Industry and shot principle photography for the movie throughout the end of 2010. Ray, Cyrus Navarro, Spencer Skoglund and I spent all of 2011 on post-production, while Mika Krstic composed and performed the score with various musicians. We finished the final movie in early 2012. In order to try and get the film seen by a larger audience we signed with a distribution company and the film was finally released digitally in 2013.

You can find it on such locations as iTunes • Amazon.com • Google Play and more. There is also an official Facebook Page for the movie. The movie was met with mixed reactions. Where most transformation enthusiasts saw an original and thought provoling take on the concepts behind the movie - the mainstream audience took on a more negative attitude towards the film. Some lashing out for not liking the lower budget or gender, religious and scientific concepts that run throughout the movie.

"Paradox Alice" to me is my most important and successful gender transformation project ever. I honestly felt that I got to really extend and play in the sandbox more than ever with what it must be like to go from being a stereotypical man and become a not so stereotypical woman. A character who completely changes his/her view about the sexes and becomes a better person for it. A character who becomes defined by his/her physical traits not because of themselves - but because of the people around them and how they treat them differently (hence my experience on SecondLife and World of Warcraft came into play here IMO).

Jeneta St. Clair and Ethan Sharrett were wonderful to work with. They completely lost themselves in the role of Alex Foxe and I had so much fun exploring with them this one specific character that makes such a radical shift in the way they view themselves, sex and the world. I loved getting Jeneta to be more the "guy" and slowly transforming her own mental state to becoming more female. It was all planned and executed to be this way. For her to discover both the strengths and weakness of what it now meant to be a woman. And I was pleasantly surprised by Stewart W. Calhoun's take on O'Byrne. Even though I mainly focus on my TF characters - Stewart blew us all away with his own internal transformation of a character who changed just as radically as Foxe does in the movie. It really became a experience to watch it all come to life.

The tone, story, set, music, characters and even transformation to this day still blows my mind. There's nothing like it out there. It's a film that scares a lot of people for it's honesty, fear of the unknown and for it's relentless primal drive. No one reading this fully understands what you might do if you found youself in a similar position as these characters do in this movie. I look at it as "mother nature" just trying to surive - and at any cost necessary. "Mother Nature" can create the most beautiful things and and yet the most horrific circumstances. That is what I set out to do with "Paradox Alice".

James, Ray and I spent much of 2008 creating the "Tales From The Underground" series and other misc. shorts like the Game Over shorts. "Tales From The Underground" was an ambitious project of multiple stories being directed by different people. It ended up being a success as it was conceived to be a Twlight Zone like series with different kinds of transformation releated themes. The last episode of the series that we shot was called, "The Interview" and was loosely based on my original "Touched By The Hand Of God" novel.

Now a lot also happened between 2011 and 2013 besides, "Paradox Alice". As some of you may know - I was sent a certain vial from a certain FAN back in 2011. And since then having been dealing with the side effects of drinking the syrum from that vial ever since. Something I've dubbed "The Hyde Syndrome". And hence - where MISS MAKO was born. Yes - I am MAKO (the male version) by day and MISS MAKO (the female version by night).

If you need anymore explanation -I suggest you start at the beginning with this first VIDEO and you will see what I mean after a while. I do continue a PODCAST once every month so those who care and keep a listen to what's going on in my personal life.

It was also during this time that I decided to start collaborating with various talented artists to conceive short comics with a transformation related themes in them. Some of the comics have been based on original stories by myself - but others have also been influenced by pop culture. Especially by movies, animation, or other stories that had a huge impact on me growing up. And this was my way of creating an alternate version of these influences and put major twists and turns on them. I also love being able to let someone's else's vision take a stab at the characters, themes and stories I've tried to conjure up.

In addition to the comics, hyde syndrome, and promoting "Paradox Alice", I also got a chance to collaborate with Wren Adams on what has become my most popular gender transformation video ever on YouTube. "Master & Servant" was a fun little short she and I made in the Fall of 2013 and has quickly become popular even outside the TF community. The video has ammased 2 million views in 7 months (which has caused me to also get a lot of coorporate emails asking me to sign up with them and make Miss Mako's Channel more of a business - which I am not really interested to be honest). To give you some context - my next closest video to reaching that goal was made over 3 years ago. Most original gender transformation content never even comes close to those numbers on YouTube. Due to this success and because Wren and I enjoy working together - Wren and I decided to do more short videos together in 2014. We have already shot a half dozen new shorts that will be airing on my channel and her channel over the next 6 months. Unlike many of my past works - Wren and I have created a unique tone IMO. Very quirky, funny and fantasy based TF stories. We decided to call this series: "The Mako & Wren Adams Show".

The other massive project I am working on in 2014 - is the digital comic series, "Paradox Alice 2". I started this up last year with artist, JC Grande and story editor, W. David Bogard. I couldn't be more excited to be working on this project and how it's all coming together.

The #1 question I have gotten asked by those who watched and liked the movie, "Paradox Alice" has been "where does the story go from here?" And this is my answer to that. Whenever I have written scripts - I always create a larger outline of what comes before and after the main script. This helps me with the history and through line of what's to come down the road. We were able to make the movie because most of that specific story took place on a space ship we could create ourselvs inside a large warehouse in L.A. But the sequel was always meant to blow up the scale and be way more epic. Something only a large studio with a huge budget could pull off. Hence this is how the comic idea was born.

Mako/Miss Mako

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